I never thought I'd have to write a C&D letter to Lady Luck (not that I can take any action against a metaphorical character), but ...

Dear Lady Luck,

Lately, there have been a few things that you've been doing constantly that have been really getting on my nerves. Therefore, I ask that you stop or at least take it easy on the following four things:

1. Adding "there's a catch" to practically every good thing that comes my way. There are few enough good things that happen to me as it is. Do the few good things that happen to me REALLY need to be diluted with something bad ?!
2. Adding ridiculously high levels of difficulty to literally everything in my life. Things are hard enough without always putting unnecessary roadblocks in my way whenever I try to do anything, from the big things in life to even the smallest tasks.
3. Giving me horrible strokes of luck that really would pretty much never happen to anyone else but still happen to me (losing that job due to an administrative error, for example). Those need to completely vanish immediately. I'm thoroughly sick of those in particular.
4. Making me pay for other people's mistakes. I already have to pay when I make mistakes. Why is it that I always have to be the scapegoat when others make mistakes as well? I've had it with having to take the fall for everyone else all the time.

I want to actually be happy in life, but these two things constantly seem to happen, and it is making it very difficult to enjoy life and actually be happy. Please, knock it off.

Sincerely,
Shintarou Inuzuka

P.S. Give me my hopes and dreams back -- WITHOUT adding the usual ridiculously high level of difficulty -- and I mean NOW. Not after I've already settled down and it's too late. Not after years of having to go through more of these ridiculous roadblocks. Not after more circumstances in which it seems like I finally achieved my goals only to find out that a mistake someone else made ruined the whole thing. I mean RIGHT NOW. I'm serious. I want them back THIS INSTANT. No more hurdles. No more roadblocks. Just give me what I have worked already way too hard to achieve without forcing me to go through even more of this garbage. I've had enough.

GONE!

Well, it only took 5 days to lose a job, but pathetic me did. I am so fucking loser, havng lost a job n 5 days. My future is end today. It is nothing left. I am not do a thng right, and I wish I was die.

Good things are never meant to last

Well, I made it here ... but I've been here all of 4 days, and I suddenly find out that due to a mistake the administration made (they had offered the job to someone else before they offered it to me, but they forgot about it), I'm now up a creek without a paddle. I have just one month to find a new job in Japan. I so far have only one possibility lined up, and unfortunately that means if I don't get the new job fast, it's good-bye dreams and good-bye future. I do nothing else well enough to get any sort of job in America, and I don't speak Japanese well enough to get a non-teaching job in Japan, nor will I EVER speak Japanese well enough to get a non-teaching job in Japan if I don't stay! Once again, other people make huge mistakes, and guess who's the fall guy? Me, that's who.

And so, I must pay the ultimate price of my future for someone else's mistakes. This wouldn't be the first time, but this time, because someone else messed up, I have no future. I have no talents at all that can get me a job where I can feel like I'm actually doing something with my life, and my dreams of staying in Japan, becoming fluent in Japanese and basically living out my life here are completely gone, as without a job, they're impossible to achieve. Every shred of hope that I have had in life is gone. I thought there was even a small bit of hope, but not for me. This whole thing has proven beyond a shadow of a doubt one thing: I am not meant to be happy, and in my life, good things are not meant to last. I am not meant to succeed, and my hopes and dreams are never meant to be. In one month, when I go back to America, I will have nothing going for me; it will be the beginning of a sucky life. I hope that life ends before I go back to America to stay. I'm sick of life.

(I'm still not gonna kill myself, but if someone else does me in, all the better. It'll save me decades of failure and misery.)

Happiness and success for me were never meant to be. I have no future. Someone, please, if in one month's time I have not found something, please just shoot me or something. I'm sick enough of life as it is, but if that happens, I have nothing to look forward to, nothing to aim for and pretty much nothing really to strive for or to get me through the day. All I'll have is memories that will never be relived and dreams that will never come true.